I must say that this has been the most challenging week for me in the area of faith, specifically to finances. Many may assume that I would be full of faith because I am an ordained minister, but I want to be real and confess to a struggle that many in my position would try to hide.
Balancing God’s provision with my ability to provide has been an issue, and I think most men struggle with this. We, as men, feel like our success is based upon how much money we make. If we aren’t making enough to provide a certain lifestyle for our family, then we feel like a failure. Many men work more, only to sacrifice their family. I only have one chance with my family.
We naturally lean toward looking at the circumstances of life and computing things outside of God’s perspective. When we should be exercising faith, we are inclined to doubt in the face of massive debt.
I found myself overwhelmed by owing the IRS, finally having to pay back an enormous amount on student loans, and then my AC goes out on my car (which could be, and I pray is, a minor problem). I look at all this and beat myself up for some of it and regret allowing certain people to influence poor financial decisions.
When it comes down to it, I could have all of life’s possessions taken from me. If that ever happened, I would still possess the most valuable thing of all – a relationship with my Savior, the Lord Jesus Christ. George Beverly Shea wrote the words, “I’d rather have Jesus than silver or gold. I’d rather be His than have riches untold. I’d rather Jesus than worldwide fame. I’d rather be true to His holy name than to be the king of a vast domain and be held in sin’s dread sway. I’d rather have Jesus than anything this world affords today.”
If all you have is stripped away from you, will Jesus be enough?