Yesterday was emotionally taxing for me. As a husband and father, I struggle with the fact that I cannot financially provide like I once did. I was trained for ministry, but most churches won’t touch a divorced minister (at least the churches with which I align doctrinally). I have had to adjust to not making what I once made, so when major expenses such as car problems come it is very disheartening (like 3 in a month). Throw on top of that the difficulties that come along with divorce, blended families, and having my children four hours away, I had an intense prayer session on the two-hour drive back. Did I mention it was very intense?
I didn’t want to come back in the house because I prefer for my wife not to see my this way. The special thing about my wife is that she loves me. It doesn’t matter that I just puked my guts out to God and had wept most of the trip back. She loves me through my ups and downs. My financial status doesn’t bother her. She is a woman of faith who just believes God is up to something and will complete the work at His appointed time.
So, at the end of the day, I know that I am blessed with a lady who will go through anything with me. She doesn’t rebuke me or tell me how foolish I am. She knows that the Holy Spirit does a fine job at that. I’m thankful that, at the end of the day, we can focus on love and let the world fade away.