Let me start by saying I only used the title “Rev.” because I am an ordained minister. I really don’t like it because it is not a biblical title. With that out of the way…
This ordained minister (me) erupted today. I know those who read this are too holy to explode in anger, but I did. I know some of you are gathering your stones and getting ready to comment to me about uncontrolled anger being a sin. So, I’m confessing my sin for the whole internet to see. Smart move, huh?
We are often known to allow things to bottle up inside us. These things are often related to work stress, home stress, financial stress, and a list of other things. One thing was the last straw and threw me over the edge. Then I got really theatrical and put on a good show for my wife and the neighbors. Don’t worry! Police were not called out, and there was no domestic violence.
No wonder Paul said, “Don’t let the sun go down on your anger.” Ephesians 4 is full of good practical advice. Following that, Paul said, “Neither five place to the devil.” Sadly, I’m sure the devil enjoyed my fit last night. I said things I wish I would not have said, but I’m grateful they were not directed to my wife. She was gracious to sit there and listen to me vent. I later apologized for dumping my truck load of frustration on her.
I have had many who read this blog thank me for saying things most ordained ministers would not say. We are slow to give pastors room to be as human as the people in the pews. That is why I’m determined to be a safe place for pastors to turn at any time. Struggling with your spouse? Struggling with parenting? Want to punch one of your deacons? No condemnation here. I’ll laugh with you. I’ll cry with you. I’ll scream with you. The only way to move forward is to be honest about where you are now.
I’m glad I erupted yesterday. It has not resolved my issues, but I was able to say how I really feel, and that is a step in the right direction. To all the other erupting volcanoes, you’re not alone.