I Just Choked On Reality

Today marks a new season on my ministry journey. I had to face the fact that although God called me to get the ball rolling for Overcomers Church, I do not have the skill set to take it beyond where it is. I have been trying to avoid swallowing that pill for several months, but today I told our core group that they could either choose to dissolve or choose to move forward. They chose the latter. These are dedicated people who want to see something happen. For that, I am grateful. I can’t wait to see what God does with this awesome group. I’m glad I got to play a small part in it.

As for the future of me and my family, you won’t have to read any more about the church on my posts (and all God’s people said Amen?). Seriously, I understand that the nature of my ministry is mostly transitional. I have stayed places anywhere from 7 months to 6 years. Some transitions take longer than others. Sometimes, God sends me somewhere so He can work on me.

I am excited about the future. Whether I rest a little while or find myself receiving a new assignment from God within the next few months, I am at His disposal. I surrendered to do His will not mine.

I find it funny that the title of yesterday’s post was “I Resign”, because I did not plan to do that today. Later in the day, I could not quit struggling until I knew what God wanted for me and for the church. Now I know. Although I almost choked on reality, I feel free now. I don’t have to try to do something that is outside my ability and spin my wheels. Now I can rest in who God created me to be and be 100 percent okay with that. He holds my future and the future of Overcomers in His hands. Meanwhile, I will serve Him while I wait.

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15 thoughts on “I Just Choked On Reality

  1. I am in a transition right now too and it’s really weird. I’m overall fine with it. I know it’s good. But there’s also a feeling of now what? Lol. It’s weird to not be doing something big. Now I’m resigned to little things but nonetheless still important things. It feels like I should jump on some big project or do something bigger or more notable. But no. I think I’m supposed to just enjoy the stillness of life right now. I think I must learn to be OK with myself and with the little things. I will find my groove again. Nothing is permanent. I’ll be busy enough beforw I know it. Wishing you the best.

  2. A great book you might enjoy during your transition: Revolution in World Missions by K. P. Johannan. Just a thought. You strike me as his description of revolutionary starter. And God speed your transition. You remain valuable to Him as ever.❤

  3. That can be a tough process. May the Lord bless your humility to understand your limits and your obedience to His call! Without going into detail, this post hits very close to home (and not just because of my own writing journey but my church experience as well).

  4. Ahh… here’s the answer to my question! Okay… now I understand. I will be praying for you, Matthew! That was a tough decision to make, I’m sure. But I know that God must have something really great planned for both you, your family and Overcomers as you close this chapter. God bless you big time!

  5. It’s just like you wrote in the previous post. We need to be content with where God places us and how He wants to use us. Even in the quiet and time of rest, may He continue to guide and instruct you.

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